my bones bend and twist, my hands pull back at the graze of your skin, i cannot stand for nothing, i cannot exist without your exhale to breathe on, and yet your never where your supposed to be, your never anywhere close to me. i try to chase the idea of you, the roads folding like ribbons out behind me, my limbs don't stretch that far, my joints wont bear the pressure, my muscles implode on themselves, just as my fingers grace your face. my magnetism makes me hold on to the thought of you, and yet i cannot split myself into two, i cannot be in two places at once, i can't have both of you.

and so i have to cut you free, root that has been lingering, you were meant to be, but with the collide of my scissors you'll be let go. descending into the atmosphere, drifting without oxygen forever, never to re conjoined, i cannot recollect you, i must let you free.

like a dagger to the soul, carving caves where the pain can go, and set in your skeleton, sink into your marrow, " he is beyond repair." they say, " he will remain this way forever."

and i'll cry and scream, i'll wrestle and rage, i'll curse at the skies, and try to forget, most importantly try to forget.
"but you my love, will never be forgotten, you my boy will never wander far from my thoughts, you'll lock yourself in your room inside my mind, you'll appear at the times when you shouldn't, you'll haunt me, until i'm driven mad, and i'll feel regret, i'll be soaked in regret.

guilty in my own skin. my hands aren't mine, my lips aren't mine, i don't own any piece of this body, and neither do you, but i'd give it all back, for a retry, a time to sort things out, choosing the path on the left rather than on the right.

i'll shatter both of them like windows, glass feathering out across their silky surfaces, gnawing at their sharpened bones, the bones that made me stumble on my words, the bones that tortured me in my dreams.